My brother Chris deploys to Iraq today. And I am just sick with worry and fear and anger and sadness.
I know, I know, I know, I know that I am supposed to say, "we really need to pray for all of our troops. And for everyone impacted in this war - soldier, civilian, friend, and foe." But you know, I just can't. Call me selfish. But I want prayers for Chris. May God protect him. May God bring him home safely.
And I know, I know, I know, I know that I am supposed to say, "we really need to work and pray for healing in our world, that we might find ways to resolve conflict without resorting to violence and war." But I feel so much violence in my heart right now; I actually want to lash out and slug someone. And not just anyone. I want to sock it to our so-called "president"; that would make me feel better - probably only that. So much for my non-violent convictions.
Now I know, I KNOW that I am supposed to be praying for our leaders, that they may govern with wisdom and compassion and justice. But you know what? I can't. Why not? Because I have absolutely no faith in this administration. I have no hope that things can actually get better until we get that idiot fascist out of office. This war will go on. And thousands upon thousands of lives will continue to be lost because of the arrogance of this jackass. So many lives hang on the balance, and this imbecile doesn't bat an eye; he's not worried. He has no problem getting to sleep at night.
I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I HATE OUR STINKING PRESIDENT!!!
And I know, I know, I know, I know that I am supposed to confess this hatred. Or at least to let it go, to release it before it eats me up. But I am not going to. For the simple reason that I don't wanna!!!
I love my brother dearly. I don't understand his calling to the military. But I love him dearly. And I respect him, I admire him. I don't support this war. But I support him. And I support his troops. I love him. I love him. I love him.
And if anything happens to him, if he is harmed in any way, it's on you, Mr. "President". You can be assured of that. Rest easy.
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I'm so sorry to hear about your brother. My prayers will be with him, with you, and with your family.
Wow. What an honest post. I often wonder why those of us who want an end to the war now(!) and want the troops home are the ones accused of not supporting the troops! That's the logic of the Bush-era. My prayers are with you and your family.
Peace,
Brian
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